The Inner Child of The Brain

There are three parts of the brain: The Child, The Ego Self, and The Mature One. The child part of the brain is very immature and always wants to go with what it feels like doing and what its emotions are like, it doesn’t know that certain things have certain limitations, it's just like a child, “It wants what it wants”. While the Mature one is the parent of that kid, and whenever the kid demands something, it will either give it that if it's possible but if it is something the parent can’t give it to the kid, it will say no. The ego self is your own self, which is in the middle, and goes according to the principles you have held for yourself. So, if there is a demand of the kid that can be satisfied, this convincing or not convincing is done by the ego self to the mature one. Based on their decisions together, the child’s fate is decided.

For a very long time, this child of mine craved a good friend who would be genuine to me. Not that I didn’t have any friends, but for a very long time I had craved a connection that was very, very pure and had genuine care and happiness for me. I loved all my friends, but I had this child of mine who had this desire to have just one such person like that too who I can share anything and go for anything too. Now the heart wants what it wants. So, I never could find that level of emotional intimacy with anyone until I found some solace with the powers of the universe. No matter how stupid this may sound, I feel like in connection with the universe I manifested someone like that.

When that someone came, I felt like, is this even possible to have this level of connection with someone? I was swept off my feet. It made me go topsy-turvy in no time. I felt like all my wishes came true and there are people like that too. I think being in tuned with your intuitions also helps in knowing if the person is genuine or not, and I can proudly say today that I made the correct choice of choosing to trust my gut to trust the genuineness of the person and getting closer to that person.

It felt like a divine touch, I felt very grateful. I remember writing a grateful message to the universe every day in my journal for all the blessings it showered me with when that person came. It's not like you need a person to complete your life, but when you do get someone like that your life does feel very full. The child part starts having a lot of fun, after all, it's after so long that it feels like that. The ego self and the mature one are so happy for the child that they feel like letting it feel the happiness for as long as it's there. After all, it is okay to pause sometimes and enjoy the moment too.

But the journey of life comes with a lot of practicalities too. At times, facing those can hurt the kid’s happiness too. And then when that was taken away, the child cried and the ego self was in shock as till then it hadn’t realized that when that will be taken away, it will be taken away completely. The mature one made peace with the situation, it sympathizes with the kid but it knows what is right for both parties and not just solely me.

It is because of the mature one only that it feels that even though some decisions might hurt today, in the long run, it's for the good only. That hurt is felt whenever all of a sudden that child begins to whine about certain discomforts it is facing. It's very natural for a child to cry when it feels cold or hot, we need to take care of it, give it a blanket when it feels cold, and provide some cold air to it when it's hot. And with time, the child will understand that changes in seasons are a part of life.

But you know what is the best part about all of that? It is the fact that I am still very grateful to have met that person, and have trusted that their care and love for me are so genuine. Even today it is genuine. How can I be not grateful and happy then?

Magic happens in real life too, life can be miraculous and it can make you believe in things that you cannot even see from your eyes in this dimension, but it's there. Just like time can’t be seen but it is there, it can be felt moving. The same way emotions and feelings; love, and care, all these have their physical existences too, it is felt even though they can’t be seen. I got to live a connection like that, based on telepathy and living with the same vibrational frequencies based on feelings. So, it’s not possible for me to be not grateful for it.

Give your gut a chance too, let it take a leap of faith at times, and then enjoy the thrills of the unknown coming your way. It is really fun and enriching.

With huge regards, Shambhavi, signing off!