Should we look for lessons everytime?

Is it just a phase where you are fighting what your heart is telling you with the facts that are there in front of you? Nothing so beautiful which feels like a divine blessing at one point in time can end on good terms, good things like that, or rather the most precious feeling in this world, love, are supposed to end badly if it does end.

No matter how hard we try, to make things end smoothly but we do end up ruining it because the feelings were too powerful to be just kept so casual between two people.

Whenever I think of how things turn out to be in a completely opposite direction of what I thought they would be like, I realize that there are inner conflicts in every person that they are going through, past wounds they are trying to heal, and the future they are trying to build on top of all that together. It’s the same with every person, no matter how hard a wall they try to act at that time.

When people die, we always cherish their good memories with us, and we do realize everyone has their own setbacks because of which they did what they did. They do things on their part and you do things on your part.

But then, did we just meet to create good memories, and then end up hurting each other because of earthly issues that all humans face, and then after exiting from each other’s lives just trying to heal those wounds?

I do have so many reasons as to why this could have happened for the better, but then why do I still find it hard on many days? The way things turned out was very divine, at least that’s what I had started believing.

I had never found myself so girly and caring, I found aspects of myself I knew I had but never had let surface it. When they actually did, out of full control, at least that’s what I thought, I did end up feeling heartbroken.

Does God send people just for some lessons? I am here in this city, which feels new every day where everyone is trying to fit in, which I am very good at, because people do love welcoming me. But the reason why I came here, is always going to stay with me.

At times you would see there were decisions to be taken, and humans are weak in their determination it seems when it comes to trusting someone else when you yourself feel drained. When things seem to not work out, everyone withdraws and wants you as a backup option. Of course, the wounds are so much to even have faith or trust in someone at that point in time, you can see the relationship which seemed to have been tied with a thick nylon rope at some point, is then just tied with a single cotton thread holding two hearts together.

When that stage comes, it’s the most critical stage, as you have no faith left but your heart is yearning for some ray of hope to just keep the other person also with you. You both might try looking for some hope, but then it seems like no one has that energy, especially then, when everyone seems emotionally exhausted.

Then what, things do end, ending on a bitter note sadly. Maybe that’s how it should end so that it keeps you wary of each other. No one has the right answer, no one can decide the right answer if it's for the good or the bad that happened. Because we never got to live that, so we can’t judge based on the present situation of how it could have turned out to be if it happened otherwise. I never think that way, but all I know is, there is no decision that is good or bad. We take decisions based on what we are capable of at that moment.  

At least, for me maybe trying to just cherish the good memories forever would be good enough. I forgive all the mistakes and want to remember all the good days only. I don't want to look at what lesson I learned here because it was more than that for me.